Long Ago, Love Built a Bridge

Love Built a Bridge

The first time I heard this song, I just loved it, Love Can Build a Bridge by The Judds.

 I’d gladly walk across the desert

 With no shoes upon my feet,

Share with you the last bite of bread I had to eat.

Love can build a bridge Between your heart and mine. Love can build a bridge.

 Don’t you think it’s time?  Don’t you think it’s time?

I would swim out to save you
In your sea of broken dreams
When all your hopes are sinkin’
Let me show you what love means

Love can build a bridge Between your heart and mine. Love can build a bridge.

 Don’t you think it’s time?  Don’t you think it’s time

  I would whisper love so loudly

Every heart could understand

That love and only love Can join the tribes of man.

 I would give my heart’s desire, so that you might see

…The first step is to realize What it all begins with you and me.

. Chorus: Love can build a bridge Between your heart and mine. Love can build a bridge.

  Don’t you think it’s time?  Don’t you think it’s time?

When we stand together,

 It’s our finest hour.  We can do anything… …Anything…

Keep believin in the power.

Love & Only Love….

Did you know that Jesus did build that bridge? God left his beautiful and perfect world in Heaven to become a baby, to suffer because of the wrongs/sins we have done, what we do wrong now and the wrongs that we will do in the future! This makes up for Adam & Eve eating the stupid apple because they were tricked by the evil serpent. Jesus died on the cross to become a sacrifice in our place. A simple example of this would be if my father here spoke up and said, “I will take Kathy’s spanking and go without TV for a month in her place. However, that is a much less profound example of His grace and forgiveness than Jesus did for us, His children.

Grace is favor and forgiveness, not because we did good things for Jesus, but because He loves us more than we can understand. Grace has more to do with an attitude or decision. We choose our attitude most of the time, our response to upsetting news or circumstances. Mercy is the action that results from the act of grace. Our Heavenly Father wants us to become more like Him little by little. Love more and more….

Through Jesus’ death on the cross, the veil between God and people was torn from top to bottom Matthew 27: 15. Pure, clean animal sacrifices were no longer required, as they were in the Old Testament and before Jesus died. Jesus changed it all. People did not have to follow 614 laws, an impossible task. Jesus became the bridge of Love between God and us. He took a bullet on our behalf. This means that we have direct access to God. I know it is hard to wrap your head around it (Me too)! I don’t know anything much about how the sun, wind, snow, stars moon…. were created but I see and or feel them, so I know they exist.  Here is a question for you; is love a feeling or is it a choice? I think I will tackle that question next time.

LOVE

As a Child….

 As a Child

As a child of God, for you always, I pray

For my baby girl to be happy, safe, and well

In my faith, I will forever stay,

My Kristie may your babe make your heart swell.

As a child of God, for you I also always pray,

For my grand girl, still in the womb you still dwell,

For at least seven more weeks, you should stay,

I know with all my heart that you that you will be well,

Because you are a blessing of such beauty every day!

In Jesus name, for both of my girls, I pray!

My Spiritual, Acrostic Poem

My Spiritual, Acrostic Poem

A = Abundant hope, health, faith, joy and love

B = Beginnings anew in the freshness of early Spring,

C = Comforting words to calm the grief-stricken anxious mind and heart,

D = Daring to be brave, perhaps, soaring like the beautiful eagle,

E= Exalting people with words and deeds so they are lifted up. Eliana will do this for me because I am being elevated from mother to grandmother too.

F = Faith the size of mustard seeds to move great mountains (Luke 17:6).

G= Granting the Grace to forgive so He will also forgive us,

H = Heavenly place where God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit reside,

I = Inner peace beyond understanding or description,

J = Jesus, the Son of God, The second part of the trinity. The One who saves if we accept His gift,

K= Kindness is seeing Jesus’ face in everyone we meet.

L = Love God above all. Love and help your fellow man

M = Majestic beauty made by the most creative hands

N = New creation, new attitude.

O = Obedience in greater measure

P = Patience, the toughest of the fruits of my spirit to exhibit

Q = Quell the impulse to hurt others.

R = Radiant smiles to brighten the day,

S = Sweet serenity of the spirit

T = Temporal Earth is our temporary home.

U = Understanding and empathy for the pain a

V = Vicarious joy watching kids play.

W = Wonder as we look up at the sky.

X = Xanthous is the color of the sun on a fun summer day. Enjoy it!

Y = Youthful exuberance is a gift we should all share.

Z = Zest for love, hope, faith, and life.

Hope & Lessons I am Learning

End of death, sin, agony and pain.
Abundant joy and life everlasting.
Savior for the broken, imperfect souls in every one of us.
Triumph over addiction, hate, loneliness, depression and tears.
Everyone who asks has a mansion in His heaven.
Redeeming grace, love and forgiveness He gives His children.

These are the the blessings that my husband, my parents my grandparents are now enjoying, yet my frail human spirit misses them all and thinks of them daily. Part of me longs to be with them, yet I am still here. This means that my job is not yet done. Due to my Cerebral Palsy, I did not expect to be. Several people told my Barry to expect to be a widower at a young age. The irony is that God had other plans and took my husband first. just last year.

I had grieved deeply before.  But, my grandparents as well as my parents were all very ill, very elderly or both. In any case, I had time to get used to the idea. I had learned that it is better that they go Home, away from me, that for me to pray for them to stay with me is very selfish on my part. This did not come to me in a flash of great insight, but gradually. I lost them slowly, inch by inch. I was aware of the magnitude of their suffering whether they spoke of it or not. I felt it!

With Barry, it was very different. I felt like he was stolen from me and our daughter. I watched her do CPR on him. I saw him being yanked to the ground as the EMT’s arrived. After 33 years 3 months 1 day and 22 hours, he was just gone in the blink of eye, before my daughter could tell him that we loved him. There was no denial nor bargaining with God. I tried. I was reading the last few pages of the book by Don Piper, 90 Minutes in Heaven.  I was told by someone to leave – they needed room to move around. Like so many times before, I was in the way, my chair took up too much space, and it kept me from being where I should have in the bed, holding his hand. Suddenly, it occurred to me that this was the reason that God had me read the book. I was to pray my Barry back to life. I prayed and I prayed. I could not lose him now. In a few months we would be in a position to buy a home of our our own, out of a major city. His tests had actually shown stability and his blood sugar and blood pressure were down. Therefore, death seemed impossible!  Up until I left him at the funeral home for the last. time, I held out hope for a miracle! His face looked at peace, not contorted in pain. The constant pain made him have age lines that he may not have had yet, but for the pain, The lines were not present in younger years. The biggest lesson I learned was God/Jesus does hear and respond to our prayers. Barry was finally free of pain and constant self-doubt. He never felt worthy or good enough on this Earth! From the look of peace on his face, I knew that he finally felt good enough, loved enough. That was  a miracle!  (Matt. 7-8). Also, Romans 8: 28. However, I wanted it done here on Earth with me to witness it, but God wanted it done a different way! Until, I left him, I thought it may be the ultimate Joke. He looked like he was having the best sleep in ages! There was a small part of me that expected him to suddenly awaken and say “Gotcha good that time, didn’t I?

Who was going to take care of me? I certainly did not want my/our daughter to carry that burden. The truth is I need a lot of help with ADL’s, otherwise, called essential activities of daily living. These include: bathing, dressing, transferring in/out of bed etc. Another lesson I learned is just how much our daughter is like her dad. Just at the time that my income went down a great deal and my rent was going up well past my total income, my daughter found a place which she could afford, just as her dad had planned, away from the city. While the care-giving situation has not always been smooth (it takes 6 people to take the place of my Barry). Naturally, that doesn’t even count the spousal things that go into it! BUT, my point is that God provides! (Matthew 6). Again, (Romans 8:28). Sometimes, it is just enough, but He is taking care of me!cropped-doves.jpg2012

 

FINALLY, I  was reminded that;

Ableism

This is an essay that I wrote for discussion in City U of Seattle, in 2016 so I thought I would share it with my friends and family. I hope you find it worth reading.

About 20% of us have some sort of disability. Therefore, ableism is a construct in our society that we cannot remove too soon. The problem is that it is deeply rooted in our vocabulary and in our subconscious. We need to stop viewing people with disabilities as defective and different (in a negative light). After all, we all have similarities and differences. In other words, we must do away with the idea that we need to be “fixed” and that we have no gift or talent to offer others. The ablest ideal allows us to marginalized, discriminated against and treated as though we have far less value than nondisabled people. (Zellwinger, 2015)

As a society, we often fail to offer full accessibility beyond getting in the front door – wheelchair ramps. After all, are wheelchair ramps, larger restrooms, curb cuts, larger dressing rooms etc. a huge bother for nondisabled people? Other accommodations can also include “braille, seeing-eye dogs/assistant dogs, ergonomic workspaces, easy to grip tools, closed captions … class note-takers, recording devices for lectures” and other services and accommodative devices or equipment. Lack of these restrict our autonomy and make us more dependent on others. Not only that, it takes away from our well-being and self-esteem. We begin to feel like a “burden.” More than that, a person with a disability often does not always have full access to healthcare. How does a person in a wheelchair get on an exam table? How does a nonverbal person communicate their problems and medical needs without a caregiver there? Medical providers need to be more aware of these difficulties (Zellwinger, 2015)

The language of ableism leads to both individual oppression as well as societal oppression as a whole. Inclusion should be the goal. Such pejorative terms include: mentally retarded, moron, high functioning, incapacitated person etc. I realize that many of these terms are used to describe a condition, or level of a condition, but more work needs to be done to find and use language with a more positive connotation. As I have said previously, I prefer the term “challenged” because a challenge does not have a negative feeling; it is just something to be dealt with or overcome. Finally, it is very important to remember that not disabilities are visible, however, that does not make them any less real.

People with disabilities should have the same rights to housing, employment, medical care, and educational access as anyone else who is considered nondisabled. In other words, they should be treated with respect and humanity individually and referring to them as a group. People with disabilities deserve to lead the best life possible.

Zellwinger, J. (2015) 6 forms of ableism we need to retire immediately Retrieved from

http://mic.com/…/6-forms-of-ableism-we-need-to-retire…

My daughter wear my sweatshirt about 3 months pregnant with my Grandbaby,. 3-21

My Experience of Lent, Easter & Baptism – 2022

Lent really hit me this year, pardon the pun. Even before that, the suffering begun at the last supper in the Upper Room. Jesus knew exactly what horrors lay ahead of Him! How hard it must have been to look upon the face of Judas knowing He was the one to betray Him. He gave us an example to follow, and we remember this each time we take Communion. (Matthew 26:23 -29). The bread or wafer symbolizes His body on the cross, and the wine or grape juice stands for Jesus’ blood He shed. Don’t let it be communion something we just do out of tradition, as though we were on automatic. During this time, questions flood my mind, how could Judas betray  the Lord especially when Jesus brought it out in the open. He should have been keenly aware of it and refused to do such a thing! I ask the same of Peter, but at least, he had the courage to face and ask Jesus to forgive him. Judas did not! He returned to the temple, threw back the thirty silver coins, and promptly found a tree and hung himself (Matthew 27:5). He never understood the foundational teaching and truth that Jesus would have forgiven him because He loved Judas (and all of us) that much! (Luke 22).

Gethsemane, the place Jesus prayed under such great agony that blood flowed from the pores of His skin. It is tragic that none of His eleven disciples could stay awake long enough to offer comfort; these men had been with him day and night for over three years. Jesus prayed that this cup could pass Him, nevertheless, His Father’s will be done! He was willing and able to take all that suffering for US, so we can have the gift of eternal life, hope joy and love always flowing (Luke 22:42).

On the Cross and He Rises Again

  • Jesus was beaten to the point his face was disfigured and unrecognizable! He was also expected to carry His own cross. According to Google, it probably weighed about 300 pounds! He was so weak from blood loss that He needed help from the soldiers that were escorting him to His death. He spent six hours on the cross. The sun disappeared and the sky turned to black. It was only just before 3 PM when he felt completely separated from His Father. He cried out, “Father, why have you left me?” Jesus then lowered his head, taking his last breath as both God and person. Ironically, in spite of all the miraculous things they had seen, nobody believed that He would arise again. I don’t understand this because they were saw so many miracles for which there is no earthly way they can explained. Yet, they all doubted! Sadly, ere no different than His Disciples. Most of us would have to feel the nail holes, the stripes on his beaten back, where the swords of the Roman soldiers pierced his side…. But that is like a scientist where proof is needed; in other words, we NEED to SEE it with our eyes to believe, but faith requires us to believe without proof  Hebrews 1-3 in the NLT says this:
  •  “Faith shows the reality of what we hope for; it is the evidence of things we cannot see. Through their faith, the people in days of old earned a good reputation. By faith, we understand that the whole universe was formed at God’s command, that what we now see did not come from anything that can be seen.” –Hebrews 11:1-3, NLT.

This is so very difficult for us, for every single person. I can’t help but think that we need a child’s faith. For example, babies/children develop trust and faith in their parents or caregivers because they come when they cry – they get fed, the diaper gets changed, the great love is shown! Jesus takes care of us if we allow him. It is also very important to understand that faith doesn’t mean that life will be “cinchy”, (I used to say that word when something came easily.) However, faith or complete trust, makes all good things possible Luke 1:37.           

God Loves YOU      

I know there are plenty of things that cannot be understood by the limitations of our human mind, but I know that I know that he loves his children – that includes YOU. Remember, what I said earlier? He sweat blood, He was beaten within an inch of His life, He was forced to carry his own cross of about 300 lbs. Lastly, he was crucified even though he broke no law and placed on a cross. He took the punishment that should have been ours since, Eve & Adam bit the apple and allowed the enemy, the serpent/snake to fool them. (Genesis 3). From that point on, they and us were separated, until Jesus died on the cross. He was the bridge that brings all of us back to God if we choose. He rose again

 God knows that we do so many things wrong! Most parents are at tempted to do the similar thing because good, loving parents HATE to watch our kids in pain and suffering. Frequently, I cut the punishment short, apologized in her place etc. It was a bad choice most of the time because lessons had to be learned to build good character. God does that too! It is like an overgrown tree allowed to grow wild. Then the landscaper comes along and trims off the dead and dying parts. It reshapes the tree and allows the live and healthy parts to grow stronger and better. God does that with us. We see it right now, (April), because fresh new leaves are growing on the trees. However, like a parent usually hates to see their kids separate from us, God wants us to have a close relationship with Him. I knew this before but that is what Easter, and my baptism means to me in a fresh, new way. I hope this little essay will stir something in you as well! God so loved the world {his children} that he gave His only begotten or biological son so that we can be with Him in paradise from {now until forever} (John 3:16). I hope you will decide to be with there with me in Heaven. He meets us right where we are, even in the darkest of places. One day I will explain my dark places and the blessings that came to help me get through them.

1 of my greatest blessings, my 8 mo. granddaughter, Eliana. I was so touched, it felt like she was hugging me! So blessed to have Easter with some of my family!

Stay tuned!!

Joni & Friends Help

As part of my Lent giving, I decided to create a fundraiser to give to Joni & Friends. When I was impatiently waiting for my little brother (now big) to come into the world, I was given a book called Joni. It told the true story of a 17 yr. old young lady who was suddenly living a different life than expected. She became paralyzed. Joni Earickson Tada has done amazing things with her life. She began a ministry combining her two passions in life – Jesus and helping people with disabilities. Her latest ministry involves getting people with disabilities out of Ukraine. According to CBN, she has gotten more than 300 people safely out who would have had little hope of escaping the war without her help. This grieves my spirit as a person with Cerebral Palsy. I know what it is like to be stuck for a few hours at most. I can’t imagine being stuck behind enemy lines with bombs going off!

Here is the link to my fundraiser: http://form.joniandfriends.org/site/TR/DIY/Do-It-Yourself-Fundraising?px=1726725&pg=personal&fr_id=2091&fbclid=IwAR1UNDENxqRFpQgcM0O8u0lvZF9mIBTrsz2ETpRaLx4KrbTibgFrdzzenFY. I am going to keep it open for months unless this insanity ends. I wish there was a way to help the Russians also; I am sure that many of them need help as well and didn’t want this to happen. Thank you for taking the time to read this. Please help if you can!

Ukrainians with Disabilities

Come Back

My Prayer for Ukraine

Thank you, God for blessing me with so many people in my life,

Thank you for letting me draw breath when I was born under such strife,

Thank you for letting me be a sister, wife, mom, and Grandma blessings all,

You have given me far, far more than I deserve, Holy One Standing tall.

So, hear my words as I shout them from the hole in my aching, heavy heart,

I watched a dad cling to his precious girl when he said goodbye as the train began to start,

He had a duty to fight the evil Putin and his blood thirsty power grab,

Putin treats his people like little more than caged rats in a science lab.

Bless Ukraine, God, with your unseen power, protection and might,

Show Putin and the world that you NEVER let evil win, only RIGHT.

People come back to God, we can’t do this ourselves, we have proved it,

Come back to the One who created us and the universe every bit,

Come back! I pray for a wave of awakening as I pray for Ukraine to fight,

May I, and so many others be strong and unto this dark world be a light.

Big John, my Dad 2022

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me
And then spin me around ’til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure
I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again

I miss you Daddy. It is hard to believe that it has been 12 years since I heard your voice and longer since I heard your marvelous laugh. I wish you could see Eliana; she is so precious!  When I hear the song Dance with My Father Again. I remember when we danced when I was knee high to a grasshopper and I commented as we whirled around the little room that would be Glen’s, “Dad, aren’t I light on my feet?! You laughed with such gusto! You laughed until tears came out. You did have a wonderful roar of a laugh. I used to try to be funny just to hear it; I don’t know if you knew that.

There was also that time when I was 4 or so, and we were doing the play, The Little Gingerbread Man at my special school. I was that old lady who baked him, the gingerbread man. Suddenly, without much thought, I took over the part of the narrator, the teacher’s part. Nobody knew that I had memorized that part as well. Suddenly, the whole room erupted in laughter. Dad, yours rose above the rest.

Fast forward almost 20 years. Kristie was born. You came over to eat with us. You were flying her up in in the air. She laughed and made such noises of glee and such joy radiated from your face. I remembered you did it with Glen too. He reminds me so much of you. He is big, just like you. He has some of your mannerisms too! I think Kristie reminded you of me.

Fast forward another nearly 20 years. Glen called to say that you were in the hospital. It didn’t look good. I knew what I must do. Several months earlier, I had taken 3 busses to Escondido, where this medical center was located, thanks to Cousin Becky who had gone with me several months before this day. So, I set out to give you a little surprise!  I said a prayer and off I went. Despite the prayer, I was surprised to find that it was an easy trip. I did not get on any wrong busses or take wrong turns along the way. Once I found ICU, his room was easy to find. I gave myself a mental pat on the back as I thanked God too!

Dad’s reaction was classic. “Katherine Ruthann, why …. how did you get here?” “The city busses and I, I replied. I think you were quite surprised. Maybe you didn’t think you were worth the trouble, Dad. you were! 12 years ago, you left the sorrow and suffering of this Earth! Nevertheless, I miss you and I love you! Tell Barry and Mom that I love them! Big John – 1941- 2010

Merry ChristMas & Love to All 2021 Part 2

As Paul wrote in Philippians 1:21-24: 

“For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body.”

My admiration goes deeper than the Apostle Paul’s “thorn” however, he had bouquets of thorns in his life, he was persecuted time and time again for standing up for what he believed in – Jesus. He was threatened, jailed in a dungeon, bitten by a snake that should have killed him while being shipwrecked, let alone the ship crashing, Nonetheless, Paul wrote about 66% of the New Testament – a pretty great feat of faith if you ask me! The Bible does not state what His thorn was exactly, but we do know, he was not healed from it, at least not on this side of Heaven. As of this moment in time, like Paul, it doesn’t seem like I will be healed on Earth either. It is clear that Paul wished to be with our Heavenly Father, although he was willing to follow His leading, not where wanted, to go but God led his life. Paul wanted to please him because he wanted his eternal reward, to be with God forever. Therefore, Paul believed that His grace is sufficient. 2 Cor. 12:9.

It says in Acts that before Paul was Paul, he was a persecutor of Christians, a Pharisee. His name was Saul. He murdered them, in fact, Yet Jesus met him right where he was, on the road to Damascus. I bet his family and friends had much trouble with his repentance, his total change of heart. It must have seemed incredible to them!

I think I was about seven when I started to pray regularly to be healed of my affliction, Cerebral Palsy, (CP). If only I could get rid of the wheelchair and walk like the other children, I could have more friends. Or so I thought, I used to imagine what it must be like to run and play. I watched the 700 Club and saw Pat Robertson pray for miracles. Guests on the show explained how they were healed because of his prayers. At least, that is what I thought – if I said the right words or behaved well enough, that I would get my chance to walk. Perhaps, I needed to speak to Pat Robertson myself somehow, Needless to say, I misunderstood how it all worked, but I was only a little girl. I thought you had to be a pastor to be so close to God that he or she could heal a person. After all, that was why He did not listen to my prayers. I was no pastor or Father of a Catholic church. There are adults in the world that feel that God is far, far away on a galaxy somewhere in the distant universe. They feel that God is too busy to be bothered with them. Again, I was wrong.

Emanuel – God is With Us

I have finally learned that it is quite the opposite. God wants to be near to us, so near to us that He sent His son Jesus, another aspect of God to live as a baby, boy and finally, a man on this earth. He became Emanuel or God with us in two ways. He was a baby born of Mary and the Holy Spirit. That is part 1 of the miracle. Remember when Adam & Eve were in the garden and Satan. as the serpent, convinced Eve to bite the apple from the tree of tree of knowledge of good and evil. Since then, we have sin and death in this world. But, God loves us much more than any human parent could. He sent Jesus Himself to die for us to pay back the sin debt that we should pay. He did this so we could be close to God again like Adam and Eve were before their Fall. God LOVES us more than we understand or can possibly fathom.

Yes, God still does miracles today as well. There are times when he does so in the blink of an eye without any intervention from us, his creation. There are other times, He uses people so his children have the opportunity to bless others. Lastly, as in the case of the Apostle Paul and myself, our thorns or disabilities will not be gone until we go Home. I believe that this is so some of us can show our love and joy in Him, regardless of the tough circumstances that many of us face in life. I know that my husband took care of me for decades without a break. What a living example of love and grace it was! More on that later in a future writing. Our daughter and her daughter, who was born this summer are miracles in my life and proof that the good Lord is still in the miracle doing business.

Takeaways

  1. God loves us more than we will ever know or understand while we live here on Earth. We will have much more clarity one day. (John 3:16). All we have to do is Ask, seek and knock. (Matthew 7:7).
  2. Yes, God still doesn’t change no matter what; this means that Jesus’ death on the cross still takes care of our sins. However, we must believe that it does, believing in Him.
  3. God will meet you wherever we are at because his love & grace are enough to get us through life.
  4. Yes, God bas NOT change so He still does healing miracles whether here on this Earth or when we go Home to Heaven. (1 Cor. 13:12).

I wish everyone a happy & blessed Christmas! I will enjoy my beautiful new granddaughter! Remember, Christmas is about Love, and the best things in life are still free!

My Precious Wee Granddaughter 2021
Mommy, my daughter, her daughter and Eliana’s Daddy

May God Bless These 2 FOREVER

I am so thankful for these two that my heart overflows,

My daughter with hers, daily, my love grows & grows,

Their love light for each other and others just glows,

Pure joy shines in their smiles from their very souls,

Thank you God for these 2 blessings, blessing both is my goal!

Thankful Thursday – Comedy Plus (comedy-plus.com)

My Daughter Kristie & Her Daughter Eliana