As a Child….

 As a Child

As a child of God, for you always, I pray

For my baby girl to be happy, safe, and well

In my faith, I will forever stay,

My Kristie may your babe make your heart swell.

As a child of God, for you I also always pray,

For my grand girl, still in the womb you still dwell,

For at least seven more weeks, you should stay,

I know with all my heart that you that you will be well,

Because you are a blessing of such beauty every day!

In Jesus name, for both of my girls, I pray!

My Spiritual, Acrostic Poem

My Spiritual, Acrostic Poem

A = Abundant hope, health, faith, joy and love

B = Beginnings anew in the freshness of early Spring,

C = Comforting words to calm the grief-stricken anxious mind and heart,

D = Daring to be brave, perhaps, soaring like the beautiful eagle,

E= Exalting people with words and deeds so they are lifted up. Eliana will do this for me because I am being elevated from mother to grandmother too.

F = Faith the size of mustard seeds to move great mountains (Luke 17:6).

G= Granting the Grace to forgive so He will also forgive us,

H = Heavenly place where God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit reside,

I = Inner peace beyond understanding or description,

J = Jesus, the Son of God, The second part of the trinity. The One who saves if we accept His gift,

K= Kindness is seeing Jesus’ face in everyone we meet.

L = Love God above all. Love and help your fellow man

M = Majestic beauty made by the most creative hands

N = New creation, new attitude.

O = Obedience in greater measure

P = Patience, the toughest of the fruits of my spirit to exhibit

Q = Quell the impulse to hurt others.

R = Radiant smiles to brighten the day,

S = Sweet serenity of the spirit

T = Temporal Earth is our temporary home.

U = Understanding and empathy for the pain a

V = Vicarious joy watching kids play.

W = Wonder as we look up at the sky.

X = Xanthous is the color of the sun on a fun summer day. Enjoy it!

Y = Youthful exuberance is a gift we should all share.

Z = Zest for love, hope, faith, and life.

Hope & Lessons I am Learning

End of death, sin, agony and pain.
Abundant joy and life everlasting.
Savior for the broken, imperfect souls in every one of us.
Triumph over addiction, hate, loneliness, depression and tears.
Everyone who asks has a mansion in His heaven.
Redeeming grace, love and forgiveness He gives His children.

These are the the blessings that my husband, my parents my grandparents are now enjoying, yet my frail human spirit misses them all and thinks of them daily. Part of me longs to be with them, yet I am still here. This means that my job is not yet done. Due to my Cerebral Palsy, I did not expect to be. Several people told my Barry to expect to be a widower at a young age. The irony is that God had other plans and took my husband first. just last year.

I had grieved deeply before.  But, my grandparents as well as my parents were all very ill, very elderly or both. In any case, I had time to get used to the idea. I had learned that it is better that they go Home, away from me, that for me to pray for them to stay with me is very selfish on my part. This did not come to me in a flash of great insight, but gradually. I lost them slowly, inch by inch. I was aware of the magnitude of their suffering whether they spoke of it or not. I felt it!

With Barry, it was very different. I felt like he was stolen from me and our daughter. I watched her do CPR on him. I saw him being yanked to the ground as the EMT’s arrived. After 33 years 3 months 1 day and 22 hours, he was just gone in the blink of eye, before my daughter could tell him that we loved him. There was no denial nor bargaining with God. I tried. I was reading the last few pages of the book by Don Piper, 90 Minutes in Heaven.  I was told by someone to leave – they needed room to move around. Like so many times before, I was in the way, my chair took up too much space, and it kept me from being where I should have in the bed, holding his hand. Suddenly, it occurred to me that this was the reason that God had me read the book. I was to pray my Barry back to life. I prayed and I prayed. I could not lose him now. In a few months we would be in a position to buy a home of our our own, out of a major city. His tests had actually shown stability and his blood sugar and blood pressure were down. Therefore, death seemed impossible!  Up until I left him at the funeral home for the last. time, I held out hope for a miracle! His face looked at peace, not contorted in pain. The constant pain made him have age lines that he may not have had yet, but for the pain, The lines were not present in younger years. The biggest lesson I learned was God/Jesus does hear and respond to our prayers. Barry was finally free of pain and constant self-doubt. He never felt worthy or good enough on this Earth! From the look of peace on his face, I knew that he finally felt good enough, loved enough. That was  a miracle!  (Matt. 7-8). Also, Romans 8: 28. However, I wanted it done here on Earth with me to witness it, but God wanted it done a different way! Until, I left him, I thought it may be the ultimate Joke. He looked like he was having the best sleep in ages! There was a small part of me that expected him to suddenly awaken and say “Gotcha good that time, didn’t I?

Who was going to take care of me? I certainly did not want my/our daughter to carry that burden. The truth is I need a lot of help with ADL’s, otherwise, called essential activities of daily living. These include: bathing, dressing, transferring in/out of bed etc. Another lesson I learned is just how much our daughter is like her dad. Just at the time that my income went down a great deal and my rent was going up well past my total income, my daughter found a place which she could afford, just as her dad had planned, away from the city. While the care-giving situation has not always been smooth (it takes 6 people to take the place of my Barry). Naturally, that doesn’t even count the spousal things that go into it! BUT, my point is that God provides! (Matthew 6). Again, (Romans 8:28). Sometimes, it is just enough, but He is taking care of me!cropped-doves.jpg2012

 

FINALLY, I  was reminded that;

Come to Me…

Come to Me as an Open, Trusting, Faithful Child….

Let Me mend the bits of your soul and heart that are shattered beyond repair,

Give me the pain, grief and tears that cause you such great utter despair,

Let me hug you in my arms, closer than you’ve ever been – tender, loving care,

I am always a prayer away, I hear you, even your silent pleadings, I AM always there.

Tell me about everything, good times too for I LOVE you to share.

Come to me as an open, trusting, faithful, child….

Let me give to you my blessings of peace, hope, joy and overflowing love,

I took all the pain with me on the cross, replacing it with a lovely white dove,

I long to be closer to you than a delicate hand is to a protective glove.

I will walk with you always and even carry you with wings of angels from above,

Call on me, for I adore you, no matter what – day or night when push comes to shove

Come to Me as an Open, Trusting, Faithful Child….

Let Me mend the bits of your soul and heart that are shattered beyond repair,

Give me the pain, grief and tears that cause you such great utter despair,

Let me hug you in my arms, closer than you’ve ever been – tender, loving care,

I am always a prayer away, I hear you, even your silent pleadings, I AM always there.

Tell me about everything, good times too for I LOVE you to share.

Come to me as an open, trusting, faithful, child….

Let me give to you my blessings of peace, hope, joy and overflowing love,

I took all the pain with me on the cross, replacing it with a lovely white dove,

I long to be closer to you than a delicate hand is to a protective glove.

I will walk with you always and even carry you with wings of angels from above,

Call on me, for I adore you, no matter what – day or night when push comes to shove.

Hugs With Jesus

Psalm 23 – My Understanding of It

A psalm of David.

The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.

The Lord is my guider and my protector; He will provide for my needs.

he leads me beside quiet waters,

He helps me to find the beautiful places that brings me comfort and peace.
    he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
    for he is name’s sake.

He helps guide me down the right road, so I will not get hopelessly lost. He renews my spirit. Therefore, I will give Him thanks, honor & praise.


Even though I walk
    through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
    for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
    they comfort me.

Even though I roll down many dark pits and valleys in my wheelchair,

I conquer my fear because you are by my side; sometimes, you even carry me when I have no more strength. Your presence gives me peace and comfort.

You prepare a table before me
    in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
    my cup overflows.

You take care of me in the worldly presence of the Evil One. You continue to bless me in the most beautifully profound of ways.


Surely your goodness and love will follow me
    all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
    forever.

May your love, goodness, mercy & grace keep growing in me daily until I go Home and I will live with You forever & always.

Psalm 23 – My Understanding of It

A psalm of David.

The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.

The Lord is my guider and my protector; He will provide for my needs.

he leads me beside quiet waters,

He helps me to find the beautiful places that brings me comfort and peace.
    he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
    for he is name’s sake.

He helps guide me down the right road, so I will not get hopelessly lost. He renews my spirit. Therefore, I will give Him thanks, honor & praise.


Even though I walk
    through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
    for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
    they comfort me.

Even though I roll down many dark pits and valleys in my wheelchair,

I conquer my fear because you are by my side; sometimes, you even carry me when I have no more strength. Your presence gives me peace and comfort.

You prepare a table before me
    in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
    my cup overflows.

You take care of me in the worldly presence of the Evil One. You continue to bless me in the most beautifully profound of ways.


Surely your goodness and love will follow me
    all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
    forever.

May your love, goodness, mercy & grace keep growing in me daily until I go Home and I will live with You forever & always.

When Someone Comes to Mind…

I have had this happen to me many times. Somebody will come to my mind, not in a fleeting way that goes away in an instant or two, but in a way that will not leave me alone. I have come to learn that that small nagging feeling is my spirit telling me that that person is in need of my love, hope and prayer. I believe that spirit is my inner heart, God, through His Holy Spirit, sending me an SOS or a May Day. I have to get more in tune with my Spirit. We all do. Other thoughts will intrude, to get me off the track of hope and prayer. I have to work not not getting side-tracked, with His help. But, that BAD one works very hard to get my focus off the Godly pursuits of love, hope and prayer.

When someone comes to your mind, don’t be afraid to send them up a few words of love, of hope – a short prayer. It could be just the thing to get your friend or loved one past a difficult moment. What does it hurt anyway? Everyone needs hope and love.

PSALM 136

to him who alone does great wonders,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
to him who by understanding made the heavens,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
to him who spread out the earth above the waters,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
to him who made the great lights,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
the sun to rule over the day,
    for his steadfast love endures forever….

A Grandma’s Imaginings & Prayers

A Grandma’s Imaginings & Prayers

My Grandbaby is soon to be born,

I cannot wait to love on her and kiss her cheeks,

To see the cute outfits she will soon adorn,

I pray for her that she will bring joy to all she meets.

Before long, she will use her legs to run all around,

Full of sweet laughter and even sweeter giggles,

Till I rock her to sleep, she sings, I love that sound,

But to my surprise, in her sleep, she still jumps & wiggles.

So many things I can’t wait to pass down and teach her,

Give me wisdom to show her how to pray, the words to say,

I will pass down the prayers I learned my own mother,

I ask that, together, we have many, many memorable days.

A New Life is a Gift

        Life is a precious gift. Let me make this clear, I am pro-life, but that does not mean that I pass judgement on anyone who has made the choice to abort. Without a doubt, learning of an unplanned pregnancy. Sometimes, abortion seems to be the easiest option. It is often encouraged by the Pro-choice community. After all, the embryo or fetus is a nothing, just an” it”.  The decision is made without considering all the possibilities because the mom is afraid. However, it is my belief that life begins at conception. Within hours, one cell begins dividing into 2, 4, 8, 16, 32…. The cell division equals life because dead cells will not divide Once it implants into its new home within the uterus (womb), the baby really begins to grow at a lightning speed.   With the medical advancements of ultrasound imaging, we can get a real time glimpse at what is going inside Mom’s body. Within weeks, the embryo begins to go from a mass of cells to a recognizable shape. The baby already has a heartbeat that can easily be seen and measured by ultrasound.

At eight weeks, the little one has a head and the beginnings of a spine.

In just 5 weeks, at week 13, the little one has grown quite a bit. The face, especially the nose and mouth, are really taking shape. The body is too!  The baby’s movements are still too tiny to be felt by Mommy, but he or she is practicing dance moves all over the cozy womb cocoon. During this ultrasound, the parents saw the baby complete a full rotation that was more graceful than a gymnast. The amniotic fluid that protects him/her does make it easier though. It is life, God’s most wonderous of miracles!

Look at those perfect legs & feet @ 17 weeks  @ 25 weeks

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I know what those who are “My Body, my Choice” are thinking; how do we take care of these additional babies? There are many couple who would love to give wonderful homes to these babies to complete their lives and hearts!

My mother had a difficult pregnancy with me; she nearly miscarried me several times. She could have decided to end it because it was not worth the emotional pain and the high risk of pre-term birth. As a matter of fact, I was born at 29 weeks, before there were neo-natal ICUs for preemies like me. However, God had a special purpose for my life. I know that I have had numerous blessings in my life. At least one purposes in life is to show God’s strength and love despite facing some mountains in my life.

I believe that He creates each of us for His chosen reason. We each have a unique mission in this life. Yes, this means we each have a special reason to be here.

Romans 8:28-29 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers.

Full disclosure here, this lovely baby shown in the photos is my beautiful granddaughter, but let me assure you, I think all babies are lovely little humans, and they all deserve their chance at life. We need to value life because it is a gift; each one its own miracle.

Prayer: Heavenly Father, thank You for the specific plan You have for me. Grant me the ability to hear Your voice and the courage to follow where You lead. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.

Taken from In Touch Ministries God’s Purpose for Your Life (intouch.org)

I Never Forget Their Great Sacrifices

John 15:12-13

12 This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

Memorial Day is arguably the best Earthly example of this scripture. Every man and every woman know that there is a chance that they may die in service to our county; it is no secret that those chances go up considerably while in a war zone. We, as Americans, owe them our thanks, our prayers, our appreciation and support for serving our country and Our Lord. Think of it, they not only lay down their lives for their friends, but for their enemies and complete strangers as well. I believe that some pay an even greater cost than their lives. They truly march into Hell for a Heavenly reason!

Some give up their peace of mind and their physical health. Often, this causes faith and joy to be lost! That is a much greater cost than death, especially if you go to Heaven. The good news is that Jesus is the GREATEST example of giving up His life for His children!

 By the time he was put on the cross, He had already been beaten and bloodied 39 times; 40 times was enough to kill a person. He died on Friday, but he rose from death on Sunday so we could have life eternally with Him! Heaven is more beautiful than any creation that humans can fathom – even as a collective body of the most creative people! No, while it is true that I have not laid eyes on Heaven, I have glimpsed His light and felt His blessings of Love!

Happy Memorial Day! Pray for our men & women, their families and our country, please. We are free because of their GREAT sacrifices!

About Pentecost & The Holy Spirit

Matthew 12:15-32

New International Version

God’s Chosen Servant

15 Aware of this, Jesus withdrew from that place. A large crowd followed him, and he healed all who were ill. 16 He warned them not to tell others about him. 17 This was to fulfill what was spoken through the prophet Isaiah:

18 “Here is my servant whom I have chosen,
    the one I love, in whom I delight;
I will put my Spirit on him,
    and he will proclaim justice to the nations.
19 He will not quarrel or cry out;
    no one will hear his voice in the streets.
20 A bruised reed he will not break,
    and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out,
till he has brought justice through to victory.
21     In his name the nations will put their hope.”[a]

Jesus and Beelzebul

22 Then they brought him a demon-possessed man who was blind and mute, and Jesus healed him, so that he could both talk and see. 23 All the people were astonished and said, “Could this be the Son of David?”

24 But when the Pharisees heard this, they said, “It is only by Beelzebul, the prince of demons, that this fellow drives out demons.”

25 Jesus knew their thoughts and said to them, “Every kingdom divided against itself will be ruined, and every city or household divided against itself will not stand. 26 If Satan drives out Satan, he is divided against himself. How then can his kingdom stand? 27 And if I drive out demons by Beelzebul, by whom do your people drive them out? So then, they will be your judges. 28 But if it is by the Spirit of God that I drive out demons, then the kingdom of God has come upon you.

29 “Or again, how can anyone enter a strong man’s house and carry off his possessions unless he first ties up the strong man? Then he can plunder his house.

30 “Whoever is not with me is against me, and whoever does not gather with me scatters. 31 And so I tell you, every kind of sin and slander can be forgiven, but blasphemy against the Spirit will not be forgiven. 32 Anyone who speaks a word against the Son of Man will be forgiven, but anyone who speaks against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven, either in this age or in the age to come.

Birth of the Church – Pentecost Holy Spirit came and indwelled 50 days after Easter! The Church was born. With the advent of the Holy Spirit, God’s Word was able to spread faster By this time, Jesus is getting much push back and resistance from people, especially the Pharisees.  He knew that they planned  to kill him, so he withdrew.

 The Holy Spirit is the third part of the trinity, a person of the trinity. Talk to the Holy Spirit like you do God and Jesus, Ask God for the fullness of His Spirit. We need the power of the SPIRIT in our everyday lives! So, we ask him what to think, say and do. We repent or change our minds and attitudes of anything that keeps this from happening, the fuller indwelling of the We need to be true representatives (servants) of Your Word. Help me find ways to spread it in a kind, loving way to others I see. Help me do Your work. There is more about the Holy Spirit in Acts 2.

The Holy Spirit Comes at Pentecost

When the day of Pentecost came, they were all together in one place. Suddenly a sound like the blowing of a violent wind came from heaven and filled the whole house where they were sitting. They saw what seemed to be tongues of fire that separated and came to rest on each of them. All of them were filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues[a] as the Spirit enabled them.

Now there were staying in Jerusalem God-fearing Jews from every nation under heaven. When they heard this sound, a crowd came together in bewilderment, because each one heard their own language being spoken. Utterly amazed, they asked: “Aren’t all these who are speaking Galileans? Then how is it that each of us hears them in our native language? Parthians, Medes and Elamites; residents of Mesopotamia, Judea and Cappadocia, Pontus and Asia,[b] 10 Phrygia and Pamphylia, Egypt and the parts of Libya near Cyrene; visitors from Rome 11 (both Jews and converts to Judaism); Cretans and Arabs—we hear them declaring the wonders of God in our own tongues!” 12 Amazed and perplexed, they asked one another, “What does this mean?”

13 Some, however, made fun of them and said, “They have had too much wine.”  

From this moment on, the Holy Spirit lives in us if we ask Him to live in our hearts. Yes, we can talk to him, just like we do God and Jesus. Look up and look deep inside yourselves, and you will find Him. From there, God hands out the gifts of His Spirit.

The nine gifts of the Holy Spirit are given in 1 Corinthians 12:4-11, which says:

“Now there are varieties of gifts, but the same Spirit; and there are varieties of service, but the same Lord; and there are varieties of activities, but it is the same God Who empowers them all in everyone. To each is given the manifestation of the Spirit for the common good. For to one is given through the Spirit the utterance of wisdom, and to another the utterance of knowledge according to the same Spirit, to another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healing by the one Spirit, to another the working of miracles, to another prophecy, to another the ability to distinguish between spirits, to another various kinds of tongues, to another the interpretation of tongues. All these are empowered by one and the same Spirit, Who apportions to each one individually as He wills.”

From this passage we can pull out nine distinct spiritual gifts:

  1. Word of wisdom
  2. Word of knowledge
  3. Gift of faith
  4. Gift of healing
  5. Working of miracles
  6. Prophecy
  7. Distinguishing between spirits
  8. Speaking in tongues
  9. Interpreting tongues

For more detailed information about the gifts of the spirit, you can go to:

 Biblical Explanation of the 9 Gifts of the Holy Spirit – ConnectUS (connectusfund.org)

The First Pentecost – The coming of the Holy Spirit